A love note that I will cherish forever.
PS get some tissue, you WILL cry!
Dear Mrs. Arnold,
As we get old, it continues to amaze me how my love for you constantly grows. I sincerely cannot imagine my life without you. You are my world. You are everything to me. I know I say it in almost all of the letters I write you, but I love you right now more than I ever have. I want this to last forever and for this to get better and better as we go forward. I know that life gets crazy. And lord knows we have been through it. But I always know at the end of the day that we are going to make it. Because no matter what, I still am drawn to you. I still want you. I still need you. We have so much to look forward to. And in saying that, I think its also important to know where we have been. It’s easy for me to get caught up in our day-to-day grind at times, but we have come a long way in our relationship in the past 14 years. 14 YEARS! We’ve gone from high school crush, to best friends, to lovers (grrrr), to husband and wife, and now to parents.
How was a 15 year old Joey to know that a crush on you would lead to this love I now possess. When we first got to know each other at Armijo (our high school), I was immediately drawn to you and how couldn’t I be? You were beautiful, fun to be around, smart. Although I didn’t know it yet, I never stood a chance. I know you ended up turning me down 🙁 at the time, but I’m sure that was just the universe knowing we weren’t ready for such a passionate love. But I still remember always talking about you. Thinking about you. I never let go of that crush I had on you. I’ll never forget finding out that you were going to SMC (our college). I was so happy. Of course I had no idea what would happen but I was excited. And sure enough, it ended up being the best news I ever received.
What started off as lunch buddies, soon turned into dinners, …(had to leave this out)… before you knew it we were inseparable. Looking back now, I feel like I always knew how special you were to me. I know that as soon as I finally opened up my heart to you that would be it. And that couldn’t have been more true. That winter break when we first started dating is one I will never forget…(another part I had to take out)…then that following summer when you went to the DR we figured out just how attached we really were. I cried at the airport! Those couple weeks without you were miserable. My life would never be the same from that moment on because now that I have found you, nothing would ever feel good without you around. After that I needed every bit of you. Forever. And from there, we basically have been together ever since.
Once we were out of college, the world was ours. We were entering into adulthood in love and ready to take on anything. When we decided to move to San Diego, although we probably didn’t know it at the time, I think we were making the best decision of our lives. We were doing things our way. Just like when we got married (although I do promise I will give you another wedding one day). But what would seem like a terrifying move to most, ended up setting such a solid foundation for who we are today. Now it was certainly hard at times, stressful and full of uncertainty, but I feel one thing that never changed was our commitment to each other. No matter what, if I still had you at the end of the day I felt ok. And the person you have blossomed into has been amazing to see. Your passion for being happy inside and out has not only forever changed me for the better, but countless other people as well (family, followers etc). It makes me so proud of you. It makes me feel lucky. It inspires me to be the best version of me. Your light shining so brightly unconsciously gives others the strength to do the same. And I hope that never changes in you.
And now, we have a beautiful daughter together. How could I get any more lucky? How much I love that little chunk is something I never could have imagined. But another thing it did, that I didn’t expect, was deepen my feelings for you. Seeing the strength you’ve shown through the pregnancy, and how amazing of a mommy you have been to her makes me so happy that I cannot put it into words. We are a perfect little family. As long as we have each other, I know things will always work out no matter what.
My wish for the next chapter of our lives is that it is filled with love, happiness and unforgettable memories. I want us both to follow our passions. I want to teach our babies to do the same. I want to love you with an open heart. I want to communicate with you. I want our family to grow into something special. Something that is passed down. A special bond that goes on for generations. A way of love that lasts long after we are gone. We are the foundation. And I know we can do it.
So let’s live a life that others can only dream about. Let’s have a relationship that makes us both happy and complete. Let’s talk every night. Let’s be adventurous. Let’s show our babies what real love looks like. And when things get tough, let’s show them how to get through it together. As a family. Because that’s what we are.
I love you Andrea Arnold. With all of my heart. Forever. And I promise you that will never change.
Happy 28th Birthday Andrea
You and me
Forever and ever.